Why I Decided To Finally Get Healthy

TGIF!  First off, I have to say THANK YOU to all the wonderful bloggers who nurtured my bruised ego yesterday, gave me virtual hugs, inspiration, and kind words of encouragement.  It really recharged me to get over it and on with better things!

All the uplifting support really couldn’t have come at a better time, as today would have been my father’s 64th birthday.  I can’t help but continue to feel an emptiness whenever a family centered day comes around and mine is missing our leader.  My father was amazing and the kind of person I aspire to be each day of my life.  It continues to break my heart that we lost him to cancer in 2011.

One thing I regret is that I didn’t have my life together when I lost my father.  I was unhealthy in every way.  I know that he worried about me and my future.  That’s one of the main reasons I vowed to turn my life around and why I decided to finally get healthy.  I want my father to know that I’m okay and that I’m happy.

I have changed my life completely, and I am happy that I can connect with my father through my healthy living journey.  However, I also feel sadness that I cheated him out of the adult Erin he would have like to have met, who incidentally, is much like the younger (more passionate) Erin he used to know.

When I was growing up, I was excellent at downhill skiing.  Not just excellent, my father would say, “born with a natural talent that people can’t create”.  I began to train as a racer at a young age.  My father and I would ski together all the time, and it was a special way we connected.  I would never say that my father was a competitive person, because he never cared much for accolades, but when it came to me and athletics, he was always taken by my natural ability.  He always said I shouldn’t take it for granted.

Unfortunately, by the age of 16, that’s just what I did.   I quit playing all sports.  I know that this concerned my father.  I took to being an unhealthy teenager who didn’t exercise at all.  I became depressed and started to feel badly about myself.  I wasn’t capable at that age to understand the connection between stopping something I was good at that made me happy, and being overweight, unhappy, and directionless.  I think we can all say, “if I knew then, what I know now” about many things in our lives.

I also developed an eating disorder.  I know that this worried my father.  I struggled with bulimia right up until the end of his life.  I drank too much.  I ate badly.  I didn’t exercise.  I dated losers.  I had no money.  I had no career.  I had no passion.  I could go on and on here about the ways that I worried my father, and how I can’t take them back.

I know that those thoughts are pointless and he would be the first person to tell me, “oh Erin, give it up” as he was never a fan of people feeling sorry for themselves.

So this is what I have to believe.

I have to believe that he knows that I have a stronger relationship with my mother than ever.

I have to believe that he knows that I’m healthy.

I have to believe that he knows that I’ve become an athlete again.

I have to believe that he knows I married a man he would have loved like a son.

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Even though I took many painful detours in my life I have to believe that I am right where I’m meant to be.

Sometimes the most painful experiences in life provide us with the most comfort and purpose.

Happy birthday, Dad.  My gift to you is the Erin you always wanted me to become.

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Has a loss or dark experience evoked change within yourself?

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Blogger Rejection

I pretty much only know what day of the week it is right now by which blog is on my linkup schedule.  Which means today is Thursday and it’s time to linkup with Amanda at Running with Spoons for…

 

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As you can tell, from the title of my post, I’m gonna talk about blogger rejection; a topic I am becoming an expert on.  Actually, no, if I were an expert on the topic, I’d probably have a better blog, and thus, be less rejected.

ANYhoo, there’s probably few things in the world that feel as horrible as rejection, am I right?  Let’s face it, we all have dealt with rejection in one form or another in our lives. If you haven’t, you kind of scare me, but I also want to drink the water running from your taps.

Some of us deal with rejection constantly.

I became very upset the other day when my writing was “passive aggressively” rejected from a popular blogging website.  Seriously, I’ve been blogging for almost two years, and yet, I feel time and time again that I must be doing something wrong.  

I read blog posts about improving readership, content, photography, Pinterest, Instagram, and Twitter.

I make changes.  I do what I think is supposed to help things get better.  Sometimes I see improvement.   Sometimes I don’t.

I know by my blog analytics, that my mine isn’t the WORST blog on the planet.  Okay, I don’t actually know this, but, I’m guess that it is not. However, multiple times I have tried to go after being part of something that fellow bloggers are part of, but I get shot down.

 

 

It hurts.

I put a lot of time and energy into blogging.  We all do.  Yes, I do it because I enjoy it, but I also do it because it’s something that I would love to possibly become a source of livelihood for me at some stage.  I never assumed it would happen overnight, but it’s super frustrating all the same. That’s the dream though, isn’t it?  Doing what you want and making a few beans too?

I constantly tell myself that as long as I’m happy and I feel content, nothing else matters.  However, you know, if you’re a blogger as well, that it … well, fucking sucks, when you hear that your content is not “a good match” or that the business you wanted to work with says you don’t “meet the high standards they must pride themselves on” otherwise known as “we can’t mutually earn money off using your space, because it sucks, basically”.  Seriously, wtf?  It’s pretty harsh.

literally how I feel about my blog right now.

But, despite the tears (and I did actually cry about it) I know that I love to write and I love to blog, so I guess the people who love me are going to love me and that’s all I can really care about.  Anything else will make me lose sight of what my passion is and that’s something that only I get a say over.  

I just keep reminding myself of this quote:

also, ms. rowling and I share a birthday, so.

Have you suffered from “blogger rejection”?  How do you recover from a setback?  Wanna give me a hug?

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Spinach Pesto and Butternut Squash Pasta

This vegetarian dish is simple, colorful, delicious, and healthy.   Butternut squash noodles are one of my favorites to make with my spiralizer.  This meal is not only beautiful in presentation, but it is bursting with flavor and a whole lot of nutrition!

spinach pestoIf you read my blog already, you know that I’m obsessed with my spiralizer.  It has CHANGED MY LIFE.  It really has.  Not that I didn’t eat a (mostly) healthy diet before I “spiraled” into a new way of eating (sorry – had to), but having that nifty kitchen tool has really revolutionized my diet.

I love pasta, so please don’t read this and think, “ugh, here’s another person trying to convince me that vegetables shaped like spaghetti are a perfect substitute for my favorite carbs” — I am not here to talk you out of loving traditional pasta.   However, I have really come to love making pasta dishes using veggie noodles, because they are delicious and healthy.  

The butternut squash noodle is so wonderful.  It holds a great texture when baked and really complements an array of sauce options (vegetarian, vegan, etc.).

Spinach Pesto and Butternut Squash Noodles

I always used to think that pesto was strictly basil, pine nut, and garlic, and in a traditional sense, this is correct.  However, there are other varieties of pesto you can create.  Pesto, is a generic term for anything that is made by pounding, so there are various other pestos, some traditional, some modern, but all delicious!

I chose to make my pesto out of frozen spinach, because Luke kept bringing up that we had a massive amount of it and it needed using!  As per, my intuitive cooking light went on and out to the kitchen I went to start thawing out the frozen spinach with pesto on my mind.

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Isn’t that beautiful?  It really does taste as good as it looks.  I love the combination of the spinach and the garlic.  If you choose to use hemp oil, it really takes the place of adding pine nuts by giving off a nutty flavor and really enhancing the flavor of the entire dish.

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If you haven’t spiralized a butternut squash before, here’s a helpful video from the spiralizing queen, Ali Maffucci over at Inspiralized.  It really is as easy as it looks and so much fun to make!

Cooking should be fun, because it is fun!  If you don’t own a spiralizer and you love your veggies, you really need to get one.  Honestly, I’m not lying, again, when I say it has changed the way I cook and eat.  It has also unleashed my “inner chef” as it has inspired me to experiment with more flavors, spices, and combinations.

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Spinach Pesto and Butternut Squash Pasta
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Recipe type: Vegetarian / Easy
Cuisine: Mediterranean
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Serves: 3
 
Spinach replaces basil in this variation on a classic pesto sauce. It's still green, it's just a little bit different!
Ingredients
  • 2 cups of frozen or fresh spinach (thaw out for two hours and remove excess moisture if frozen).
  • 2 T of grated Parmesan cheese
  • ¼ cup of your favorite healthy oil (I used hemp oil which is nutty and full-bodied)
  • 3 cloves of garlic, minced (or whole if you're using a food processor).
  • 1 butternut squashed, spiralized (see instructional video in post).
  • Salt and pepper to taste
Instructions
  1. Once you have your spinach selection ready, place spinach, oil, garlic, and Parmesan cheese in a food processor or blender. (It's really best to "feed" the oil in as you process, but you can also put it in a bit at a time with a blender or mini food processor if needed!)
  2. Set aside until squash is spiralized and baked.
  3. Preheat your oven to 200 C (of approx 400 F)
  4. Cut the top end of your squash off and cut the long part of the butternut squash (before you get to the seeded/pulpy bit).
  5. Peel and cut in half widthwise.
  6. Spiralize both halves using your C blade.
  7. Coat your baking sheet with healthy oil (or cooking spray) and spread noodles over evenly and cook for 30-40 minutes (ovens vary so keep checking the texture)
  8. **If you like a crunchier veggie noodle I would not go past 30 minutes at this temperature.
  9. Once your noodles are done, divide out on a plate and top with pesto and garnish with a fresh basil or spinach leaf for presentation.
  10. Enjoy

 

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I know this will become an instant favorite for you and your family if you’re fans of traditional pesto on pasta.  This is a nice alternative to not replace pasta in your life, but to expand your dietary horizons.

Do you ever make alternative pesto?  What’s your favorite spiralized noodle?

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Case Of The Mondays

 

Can you have a “case of the Mondays” while you’re not working?  Yeah, you totally can.  Also, I am going to apologize in advance for how disorganized and scattered this post is.  It’s kind of where my head is at right now.

However, I need to get it together this week, because I am going to be super busy.  About two weeks ago, I signed up for a Nutritional Therapist certification through the The Health Sciences Academy.

I am really excited to get started on this certification — their Nutritional Therapy curriculum looks fabulous and there are so many extras I am going to receive by doing my certification through them.  I just LOVE to learn more about nutrition and health!

Some of the topics I will be covering in my program are:

  • How food changes our DNA
  • Genetic adaptions to nutrition
  • Probiotics
  • Exercise and oxidative damage 
  • Essential nutrients and antioxidants A-Z
  • How to test antioxidant capacity

Interesting stuff, huh?  Super excited to add this certification to my collection!

The Weekend

Has Spring officially sprung back in the states?

Glasgow was beautiful this weekend.  I mean, I actually stripped down (well, took my jacket off) to my tanktop, during a much needed walk, after our Saturday brunch at this cute place called D’nisi.  It’s literally right across the street from our place, but we hadn’t tried it yet.  It was really good and super cheap. £13 ($19) for two breakfasts and posh coffees!

We both had pancakes – well, Luke had a full breakfast, but I had pancakes and “American style” crispy bacon.  I can definitely get on board when bacon is piled on my carbs.

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I also had a delicious skinny caramel cappuccino.

cappuccinoLuke’s “full” breakfast…

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So, after that conquest, Luke and I decided to walk to Whole Foods so he could pick up some of their spectacular coffee and we could deflate.

We picked up some of these tasty lil thangs, which were not bad.  However at £1 for a tiny bag, I think I’ll just opt for making them myself next time.  I had never tried a coconut chip before, and to be honest, I wasn’t a big coconut fanatic until living with Luke; he swapped butter and mayo for coconut oil months ago.  At first, I thought coconut oil tasted like vaseline, but now it has grown on me. admittedly.

nudieAlso, this weekend, I became obsessed and invested wasted literal hours of my life watching the YouTube sensation dope2111.  If you actually have a life and don’t spend hours on YouTube,  you probably don’t know who she is.  Her name is Promise Phan and she does “celebrity transformations” on herself with makeup techniques (see below).  She also just has some seriously good makeup tips.  Just look!

I tried a few of her tips on myself (Obviously I don’t look like any of the celebs she “created” on herself, but I was impressed with the difference!)

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I also tried a couple of  salted caramel goodies….

 

 

The tea was good after it had steeped properly, but at first it didn’t have any hint of salt or caramel to it.

I also made some pumpkin spice pancakes (I know, it’s Spring not Autumn, but I was in the mood)!  Surprisingly enough, they actually came out pretty damn near perfect for my lack of pancakery skills!

 

pancakes5Wow, I just realized I had pancakes both days this weekend.  That’s pretty sweet, actually.  I don’t really eat pancakes all that much, but I have this new obsession with them.  There are worse things to be obsessed with, right?  Um, yeah, Erin, like, YouTube celeb makeup tutorials.

I finally finished my resume or “CV” up and am ready to put it out there for the Glasgow job market to see!  I’m nervous, but hopeful that something good will come my way.  I’m not in a hurry right now, so it will be nice to hold out for something great (if possible)!  I’ve got my certification to get cracking on and guest posting gigs, so I’m keeping myself productive and busy in the interim.

I hope you guys have a great Monday and a wonderful week ahead!

What did you do this weekend?  Do you have any YouTube vlogger obsessions?  What’s your favorite pancake?

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Staying Fit In A New City

Staying Fit In A New City – I’m Guest Posting At Skinny Fitalicious Today

Happy Friday!  I don’t have a full post today, but I am guest posting for Megan over at Skinny Fitalicious, and I’m talking all about how to stay healthy in a new city.  I have five tips that have helped me to eat healthy, keep fit, and stay sane in the early weeks of my big move to Scotland.

Moving or being away from home can be stressful; especially if you’re like me and are a creature of habit!  My tips will help you find your healthy footing, get the most out of your new surroundings, and feeling at home in no time!

Hop on over to Skinny Fitalicious to see my post and to check out Megan’s awesome blog; She’s an inspirational lady!

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3 Tips For Avoiding Emotional Eating Cycles

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It’s Thursday, and it’s time to take the conversation from between my ears to my bloggity blog.  Seriously, blogging is so therapeutic, right?  You know, except for those times when I’m feeling guilty about not posting or stressing out about not taking pictures of my food and everything I see.  #BornNeurotic

So, I’ve recently been stressing out about how to best adjust to life in a new country.  I’m trying to find my footing and a job, and, you know, all those things adults are meant to worry about.  Nothing triggers my emotional eating tendencies more than stressing out about a situation I have no control over.  If you struggle with emotional eating, you know that it’s a vicious cycle and once it starts, it can be SO difficult to break.

After years of therapy working through this issue myself, and spending the last several years trying to live a healthier and more productive life, I have found some strategies for coping with emotional eating.

I referred to this a couple of weeks ago as feeding my emotions to starve my well being.

I have also discussed the chemical effects of giving in to emotional eating.

When you take that first bite out of a piece of cake, your body releases the “feel good” chemical, dopamine, which stimulates the area of your brain that tells you that you feel pleasure.

So, having the knowledge of what will happen once I eat that KitKat (or whatever is readily available to start the cycle of destruction) is one of the best tools to have against turning to food in times of instability.

However, that’s not ALWAYS enough.  We all know some things are better for us than others, but we still have to live a little, right?  I used to live a lot.

3 Tips For Avoiding Emotional Eating Cycles

  1. Stop thinking in black and white terms.  Foods are not “BAD” or “GOOD”.  This type of thinking is an addictive personality’s main source of fuel.  Living a life of “all things in moderation” is easier said than done.  Period.  However, it’s the only way to live if you have emotional eating issues, because until you condition yourself to stop “food shaming” , you’re going to live life in black and white.  I think we all know that life is a giant grey area, so the foods you eat should fall into this category as well.  Working on changing this mindset is the first step to breaking free from the binge cycle.
  2. Know your triggers.  For me, it’s feeling powerless or out of control about something in my life.  I know that when I feel like I am not in control of something, I tend to want to eat mindlessly to try and numb myself.  So, for a while, I kept a diary after I would have a binge episode so that I could start to identify specifically what caused it each time.  I know, who wants to document that time they ate Reddi-Wip in the fetal position (yes, really), but seriously, this helps.  Know your triggers, so you can be prepared for the next tip.
  3.  Remove yourself from the situation.  By “remove” I mean mentally and/or physically. I am not trying to compare and contrast here, but one of the reasons that the “12 Step” program has been so successful is the fact that it encourages people to succumb to their vulnerability and channel it outward (the whole “sponsor” concept).  Find a person you trust to speak with, take a walk, go to the park, or do what I do, look at pictures of cute animals.  (Seriously, I do this.) My point is this: This is not a time to start rationalizing with yourself.  Don’t try and “talk” yourself out of emotionally eating, that will lead you straight into the cookie jar.  I know, I’ve been in there and all that’s in there.  Cookies.  Not so many answers.  Don’t be your own “food police” here, just find a way that’s comforting to you, to remove yourself from the situation.

Remember, what’s required here isn’t a self-shaming session, but a way to empower yourself over a struggle you are continuing to face.

So, the next time you’re struggling, breathe, take five, and come back here and look at this:

“believe in yourself” how freakin’ cute is this pig? whatever, I still love bacon.

I hope that this helps those of you who need it.

Today I’m linking up with Amanda at Running with Spoons today for…

 

Thinking-Out-Loud

Do you struggle with emotional eating?  Do you label food as “bad” or “good”?  Do you spend much time on Buzzfeed?

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Super Healthy Edible Cookie Dough

A super delicious spin on that raw cookie dough we’re all so tempted to take our chances with.  I am totally guilty of eating the dough mixture out of the bowl while the cookies are in the oven!  This recipe is packed with chickpeas, nut butter, and makes a great healthy treat! 

you can eat this with a spoon.

you can eat this with a spoon.

Oh happy day!!!!!  Why am I so happy?  Probably, because I don’t have a job care in the world!  Actually, the reason I’m so chipper is because I found the antidote to my recent cookie butter addiction!  Seriously, what mad scientist came up with this cookie butter stuff?  I don’t know whether I want to kick them or kiss them.  And the cookie butter be like:

ugh. too true.

It feels so wrong comparing cookie butter to Kanye West, but, I guess they probably do share one thing in common; they are both living in Kim Kardashian’s cupboard.  No I didn’t. Yes, I did.

Anyhoo we’re here for the Super Healthy Edible Cookie Dough that I speak of, so, let’s get on with it, shall we?

First off, I want to give a major shout out to the fabulous, wondrous, and magnificent (drum roll…) CHICKPEA!  Yes, the chachachachickpea <—–like the ChiaPet jingle, yes? No?! Ok.  I guess it was funnier in my head.  Most things are, but that’s a whole other post!


Stunning Chickpea Facts

  •  Chickpeas lower cholesterol through their magnificent dietary fiber content; nearly 13 grams per cup!
  • Chickpeas promote healthier blood pressure as they are a very low sodium food.  However, be mindful of packaged chickpeas as they tend to have higher concentrations of sodium in their packaging.
  • Chickpeas are a WONDERFUL source of protein — one cup gives you over 14 grams in one go!  That’s like 30% of our total daily value.  They also make a great substitute for ground meats and make soups thicker!
  • Chickedy-peas also contain the essential amino acid Lysine.  Lysine helps the body absorb calcium, convert fat into energy, make collagen, encourage growth and maintain low cholesterol levels.  The recommended amount of Lysine is 12 mg per kilogram (or 2.2 lbs) of body weight. Ex. a 140 pound person would require 764mg daily   (140 / 2.2 x 12 = 763.63 or 764) (FYI, there’s 486mg in every 1/2 cup of chickpeas!)

Super Healthy Edible Cookie Dough

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This recipe is #DELICIOUS and also packed with protein, fiber, healthy fats, and antioxidants.  I’m not suggesting you should eat the whole bowl in one sitting (I may have …with some help), but the good news is you can keep this in the fridge for several days so you can keep the delicious party going.  SUPER!

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Super Healthy Edible Cookie Dough
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Recipe type: Vegetarian (Easy)
Cuisine: Dessert
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Serves: Approx 5 Servings
 
Spin on classic cookie dough. It's egg free and packed with chickpeas and nut butter for extra protein and fiber!
Ingredients
  • 1.5 Cups of chickpeas (approximately one can - if you're using canned, be sure to rinse them thoroughly!)
  • ⅓ Cup of peanut butter (or your favorite nut butter)
  • 2 Tbsp of Honey (you can also use maple syrup or any other natural sweetener you prefer)
  • 1 tsp of vanilla extract (I actually used almond extract as well but it's not necessary!)
  • ¼ Cup of dark chocolate chips (you can use more if you like, or substitute for carob)
  • Pinch of salt
Instructions
  1. Place chickpeas, nut butter, honey, vanilla, and salt to your food processor (or blender) and mix until it's at a consistency YOU like. (I like my cookie dough sort of sticky, so mine is a chunkier texture, but keep blending until it's at a consistency you prefer!)
  2. Stir in the chocolate chips
  3. ENJOY!
Notes
The mixture should last up to 3 days in the refrigerator in an airtight container
Nutrition Information
Serving size: 3 TBSP Calories: 146 Fat: 7g Carbohydrates: 20g Fiber: 7g Protein: 5g

I made this for the first time last Saturday night and my hubby and I couldn’t get enough of it.  I actually didn’t give Luke much of a chance to eat it; I was blown away by how much it satisfied my (decade long) fantasies of buying and devouring a tube of raw cookie dough.

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What’s your favorite healthy dessert?

Do you love chickpeas?

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5 Moves For A Rockin’ Bod

Happy Tuesday, #FitFam!  First, I want to say Happy Blog Anniversary, again, to Jessica at The Fit Switch!  It’s SO hard to believe your blog baby is so young, Jess, you’re killing it, girl!  How do you like that virtual “high five”? (Isn’t that what we used to do on Myspace? Omg, Myspace, remember that?  I think Justin Timberlake owns it now.  I know, I’m random!) Today I’m linking up with Jessica and Jill for #DishTheFit and today’s optional topic is “your favorite QUICK workout“.  I’m going to tell you mine and you can do it in less time than it takes to make sense of my blog posts!

My favorite quick workout is one that I built on IDEA FitnessConnect through their “Workout Builder” which has been a lifesaver when planning workout profiles.  If you’re a fitness professional, the IDEA FitnessConnect Workout Builder is AH-MAY-ZING and you need to be using it! Post idea, much?

5 Moves For A Rockin’ Bod

Okay, for this workout you will need a set of dumbbells (or several sets ranging from 5-10 lbs).  This workout is moderate to high intensity, but remember to push yourself within your fitness range.  The objective of this workout is to push yourself to get the most out the 15 minutes, but not to injure yourself.  Please be sure to do these moves with perfect form, and as with any workout on BPM, please check with your physician to see if this workout is right for you before attempting it.  You can access the workout details (and modifications) here.

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You can burn up to 400 calories with this workout in under 20 minutes.  It’s great for when you’re crunched for time but want to work your whole body quickly!  I did this yesterday and burned 369 calories (not to mention HUNDREDS post-workout) doing this circuit! (I apologize for the blurry image, but I took it right after and my arms were like JELLY!)

 

You don’t need a lot of time to work your body and jump start your metabolism, you just need perfect form and the right moves!

What’s your favorite quick workout?  Are you a fan of quick workouts or do you always make the time for longer?  Join the conversation and #DishTheFit with Jessica and Jill!

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Motivation Manifesto

 

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Happy Monday, troops!  Technically we’re not at the midway point of April just yet, but since this Monday falls the closest to the middle of the month, I figured it would be the best time to lay out my “motivation manifesto“.  My motivational manifesto is a mission statement for my life, because lately I’ve needed to reflect and work on personal development and growth.

If you’re a regular reader of Beets Per Minute, you know that one month ago I moved to Scotland to live with my husband, Luke.  It’s been an eventful, but challenging month for me.

  In Limbo

I’m still not feeling completely settled in, but that could have to do with most of my British identity still hanging in the balance.  I had an interview for my National Insurance number almost two weeks ago, but I still haven’t received it, which means I am still on hold for getting a job.  I never realized how passionate I am about leading fitness classes until I’ve now spent nearly FIVE weeks without leading one.

Not being in front of a class and feeling that rush has left me a little bit empty inside, truth be told.  I also haven’t been Spinning in almost five weeks, which has been super depressing for me as well.  I have been taking lots of long walks and runs over the past month, but I am seriously missing the fulfillment I get from pedaling my heart out on that bike.

it’s this real.

Status Quo

I will not beat myself up entirely, because I have done very well this month, all things considered.  With the exception of last Wednesday, when I ate in bed watching 7 hours of Coronation Street and EastEnders.

I probably should also include that I wore an As Seen On TV3 Way Poncho” all day.  (Including while I had to vacuum up half a bag of panko breadcrumbs, which I had spilled all over the kitchen floor.)  I was attempting to make my baked chickpea burgers, which I boasted to my husband about for literal months.  He was a trooper and ate two whole  piles of chickpea remains.  I think he could tell I had been crying.  Not the best day over here to date.

 

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Motivation Manifesto

So, after my designated day of feeling sorry for myself, I got myself up and out on Thursday for a walk in the sunshine and realized that, I’m kind of a jerk for getting myself into that state of mind.  Walking around Glasgow, married to an amazing man, and having my health; I should really have more perspective to work with at this point in my life.

So, I decided this weekend that I would get myself sorted out and put an end to this “life limbo” I’m feeling and regain control of my destiny.

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Seems easy enough, right?  It had to be done.  I’m not discounting my bravery for moving away from everything familiar to start this next chapter of my life.  However, I suffer from anxiety and tend to fall apart at the seams when I feel I have little to no control over a situation (which is the root to many, many a problem).

By placing this manifesto into my life, I simply need to follow it whenever I make a choice, and I will find my way with confidence.

  • Start doing things I love:  Write more.  Sign myself up for some Spinning classes and get myself into gyms and starting the process of subbing or instructing classes.  Bake delicious (mostly) healthy things.  Read more.
  • Stop over analyzing everything:  This is a biggy for me.  As I stated above, I am a worrier and suffer from anxiety.  My husband will tell you, I’m the “what if” queen.

“What if I don’t find a job?”

“What if I can’t have a baby?”

“What if I drive you crazy with my incessant what if’ing?”

UGH.  I’m pledging I will try my very best to not “what if” myself into a panic-induced-cookie-butter-out-of-the-jar eating frenzy.  If I am going to “what if” at all, it will be for the better.

“What if I find a great job?”

“What if I make loads of new friends?”

Better.

  • Be true to my passions:  Fitness, cooking, writing, loving, exploring, creating — do it and do it with intention and heart.

Can you spiralize a cookie?  More to come…

  • Stop comparing myself to others and make my own path, but allow others to follow it through leading by example:  This is a BIG one, and I think it is for all of us.  In a day and age where we’re constantly viewing a highlight reel of each other’s “lives”, it’s so hard to not compare where you are to where somebody else is.  It’s all crap, really.  My beautiful sister gave me a lovely card the day before I moved to Scotland with this Beatles verse from All You Need Is Love:

There’s nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be.

This is so true.  Even if you’re not CEO or earning loads of cash with a “perfect” life, you’re doing what’s right for you.  If you feel like you can do better, want better and get after it.  Comparison truly is the thief of joy, so I’m going to really do my best to stay zoomed in on me, myself, and I when it comes to what I’ve got going on.  It’s great to be inspired by others, but don’t let someone be better or have it better than you do, it’s a one-way ticket to not leaving your pajamas.  Screw that.  I’m going to continue to live a life that inspires others to be their best.

  • Never stop learning:  One of the great things about being in the fitness profession is the need to always continue your education.  I signed myself up for a Nutritional Therapy certification course last weekend, and I’m SO excited to get started.  The NT certification is all about nutrition, genetics, and improving individualized health by learning how people are affected by their dietary choices.  This course also allows me to continue my passion for learning about wellness.  I love that many of my friends and family come to me with questions about their diets and exercise plans and that I have been able to offer them helpful advice.   It’s never a bad idea to learn more, right?  I still suck at Scrabble.
  • Allow myself to be lost so that I never stop “finding” myself:  If I had a dollar for every time I’ve said the phrase, “I feel so lost” — I’d have a bank account busting at the seams.  What’s so bad about being a little lost?  In fact, if I really think about it, all of the best decisions and outcomes I’ve had in life have come from being “lost” and “finding” something new about myself.

You know what Mr. Robert Frost (said in the style of Blanche Deveraux) said about taking a road less traveled; it made all the difference.

Robert Frost was kind of a big deal, so, I think it won’t hurt to take some advice from him. Just saying.

  • Live each day with courage and love:   Years before my father passed away, he wrote my sister a letter on life.  And in this letter he wrote, “when you do something, ask yourself, ‘where’s the courage in this?’  Acting with courage isn’t always the easiest thing, but who ever said doing the brave thing would be easy?

It isn’t always easy for me to face challenges, as I’m sure it isn’t for many of you.

I worry.

I get anxiety.

I let my insecurities get the better of my heart.

However, when it comes down to it, I pull through when the going gets tough!  I will ask myself when making choices where the courage is in it, and I will answer honestly and proceed with all my heart.  It takes courage to love ourselves and others with all of our scars.  I must remember, we’re all fighting our own battles, and to make it through we must do so with love and courage.

Do you ever think, “I need to reevaluate my life?”  Have you ever written a manifesto for yourself?  What do you want from each and every day?

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Easter Weekend

Happy Monday!  I hope those of you who celebrate Easter had a good one!  Even though Easter bunnies terrify me, I had a good one.  Seriously, some people are scared of clowns, but for me, this guy is a nightmare.  Right?

tres cray.

tres cray.

Even though the Easter bunny scares me, I still get into the holiday spirit, and by holiday spirit I mean candy.

Also, look at this vintage photo of me and my best friend, Abby.  What the hell am I wearing? Lol

the clothes.  i'm so short.

the clothes. i’m so short.

Have you recovered from that yet?  Okay, moving on.

Luke has a three day weekend, so we’ve been enjoying an extended bit of time together.  Saturday, we went to Whole Foods, which I am always excited about, but then quickly become totally overwhelmed by.  It was a different experience going to a Scottish Whole Foods Market.

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Obviously, because there were things like:

Haggis Pizza

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Eton Mess chocolate bars

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Meringues the size of your head

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And they have one of my FAVORITE American wines available (ouch on the price, but happy nonetheless)!

Velvet Devil Merlot

It was a good time and we discovered a bunch of nice little places to eat just a mile from our apartment!

We also took a nice long walk through Pollok Park on Saturday afternoon.  We attempted to take selfies and be all nauseatingly cute like that, but we realized that we’re both totally incapable of taking a couples selfie that wouldn’t leave the recipient thinking, “why would anybody send me this?”   You know those pictures.  You see them and automatically think, “I would never post a picture that bad of myself”.  So, instead, you’ll have to see pictures of cows and random strangers.

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You’re welcome.

This year I actually wasn’t too bad on the candy consumption front.  In fact, Luke and I have been on such a health kick the last couple of weeks.  This is mostly due to the fact that I am attached at the hip to my spiralizer.  Seriously, if somebody invents a spiralizer holster, I’d probably buy it.

Yes, I’m that ridiculous.

So, on Easter Sunday we did splurge a bit.  For breakfast, I made us eggless and banana-less protein pancakes (they said it couldn’t be done, but I DONE it).

I topped mine with Tesco cookie spread.  The one and only jar I will ever buy because it is addictive and I kept sneaking into the kitchen to stick a spoon in it.

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I’ve also become obsessed with Jaffa Cake Alpen Light Bars.  They are delightful.  I have been a Jaffa Cakes (or just the plain ‘ol chocolate and orange flavor combo) fan for years, so the fact that they could squeeze it into an Alpen bar is just wonderful.

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It was, like, 65 degrees and sunny in Glasgow yesterday, so Luke and I decided to walk back to the Whole Foods area of Giffnock to find a place to have an Easter dinner.  It was such a nice day and we figured we were going to stuff our faces, so why not get some exercise before and after we feast?  Great logic.

#easter wine because #itsrarelysunnyinglasgow

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We chose an adorable Italian place called, Andiamo.

 

The food was amazing.  We definitely took up the 3 courses for £14.95 deal!   We also both ate each other’s food.  #Marriage.  “You get this, so I can have half“.  It’s a good system.  Our menu included…

Minestrone al ‘Italiana  & Crostini al Polpette

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 Maiale Rosmarino & Pizza Pollo Piccante

I was too self-involved with this to photograph Luke's dinner!

I was too self-involved with this to photograph Luke’s dinner!

Gelato di Lussuria & Meringhe con la Panna

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We rolled  walked home afterwards merrily, as I continued to make the statement, “I want to move over here” repeatedly.  It’s only a half a mile from our current place, but it seems worlds away to me.

One would think after eating all the things we did that I wouldn’t have room for Easter candy, but I’m pretty remarkable like that.  I went for it.

Luke got me some Cadbury Egg n’ Spoon treats.  We each had an egg; OMG, they were delightful.

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Oh and we also got these Creme Egg “Pots of Joy” which we haven’t eaten yet, but I stole somebody else’s food porn to show you what we’ve all yet to experience.

I suddenly feel the need to run 10 miles and drink copious amounts of beet juice.

I wonder why?

What did you do for Easter?  Do you think Easter candy is the best?

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