Happy Monday, troops! Technically we’re not at the midway point of April just yet, but since this Monday falls the closest to the middle of the month, I figured it would be the best time to lay out my “motivation manifesto“. My motivational manifesto is a mission statement for my life, because lately I’ve needed to reflect and work on personal development and growth.
If you’re a regular reader of Beets Per Minute, you know that one month ago I moved to Scotland to live with my husband, Luke. It’s been an eventful, but challenging month for me.
I’m still not feeling completely settled in, but that could have to do with most of my British identity still hanging in the balance. I had an interview for my National Insurance number almost two weeks ago, but I still haven’t received it, which means I am still on hold for getting a job. I never realized how passionate I am about leading fitness classes until I’ve now spent nearly FIVE weeks without leading one.
Not being in front of a class and feeling that rush has left me a little bit empty inside, truth be told. I also haven’t been Spinning in almost five weeks, which has been super depressing for me as well. I have been taking lots of long walks and runs over the past month, but I am seriously missing the fulfillment I get from pedaling my heart out on that bike.
it’s this real.
I will not beat myself up entirely, because I have done very well this month, all things considered. With the exception of last Wednesday, when I ate in bed watching 7 hours of Coronation Street and EastEnders.
I probably should also include that I wore an As Seen On TV “3 Way Poncho” all day. (Including while I had to vacuum up half a bag of panko breadcrumbs, which I had spilled all over the kitchen floor.) I was attempting to make my baked chickpea burgers, which I boasted to my husband about for literal months. He was a trooper and ate two
whole piles of chickpea remains. I think he could tell I had been crying. Not the best day over here to date.
So, after my designated day of feeling sorry for myself, I got myself up and out on Thursday for a walk in the sunshine and realized that, I’m kind of a jerk for getting myself into that state of mind. Walking around Glasgow, married to an amazing man, and having my health; I should really have more perspective to work with at this point in my life.
So, I decided this weekend that I would get myself sorted out and put an end to this “life limbo” I’m feeling and regain control of my destiny.
Seems easy enough, right? It had to be done. I’m not discounting my bravery for moving away from everything familiar to start this next chapter of my life. However, I suffer from anxiety and tend to fall apart at the seams when I feel I have little to no control over a situation (which is the root to many, many a problem).
By placing this manifesto into my life, I simply need to follow it whenever I make a choice, and I will find my way with confidence.
- Start doing things I love: Write more. Sign myself up for some Spinning classes and get myself into gyms and starting the process of subbing or instructing classes. Bake delicious (mostly) healthy things. Read more.
- Stop over analyzing everything: This is a biggy for me. As I stated above, I am a worrier and suffer from anxiety. My husband will tell you, I’m the “what if” queen.
“What if I don’t find a job?”
“What if I can’t have a baby?”
“What if I drive you crazy with my incessant what if’ing?”
UGH. I’m pledging I will try my very best to not “what if” myself into a panic-induced-cookie-butter-out-of-the-jar eating frenzy. If I am going to “what if” at all, it will be for the better.
“What if I find a great job?”
“What if I make loads of new friends?”
- Be true to my passions: Fitness, cooking, writing, loving, exploring, creating — do it and do it with intention and heart.
Can you spiralize a cookie? More to come…
- Stop comparing myself to others and make my own path, but allow others to follow it through leading by example: This is a BIG one, and I think it is for all of us. In a day and age where we’re constantly viewing a highlight reel of each other’s “lives”, it’s so hard to not compare where you are to where somebody else is. It’s all crap, really. My beautiful sister gave me a lovely card the day before I moved to Scotland with this Beatles verse from All You Need Is Love:
There’s nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be.
This is so true. Even if you’re not CEO or earning loads of cash with a “perfect” life, you’re doing what’s right for you. If you feel like you can do better, want better and get after it. Comparison truly is the thief of joy, so I’m going to really do my best to stay zoomed in on me, myself, and I when it comes to what I’ve got going on. It’s great to be inspired by others, but don’t let someone be better or have it better than you do, it’s a one-way ticket to not leaving your pajamas. Screw that. I’m going to continue to live a life that inspires others to be their best.
- Never stop learning: One of the great things about being in the fitness profession is the need to always continue your education. I signed myself up for a Nutritional Therapy certification course last weekend, and I’m SO excited to get started. The NT certification is all about nutrition, genetics, and improving individualized health by learning how people are affected by their dietary choices. This course also allows me to continue my passion for learning about wellness. I love that many of my friends and family come to me with questions about their diets and exercise plans and that I have been able to offer them helpful advice. It’s never a bad idea to learn more, right? I still suck at Scrabble.
- Allow myself to be lost so that I never stop “finding” myself: If I had a dollar for every time I’ve said the phrase, “I feel so lost” — I’d have a bank account busting at the seams. What’s so bad about being a little lost? In fact, if I really think about it, all of the best decisions and outcomes I’ve had in life have come from being “lost” and “finding” something new about myself.
You know what Mr. Robert Frost (said in the style of Blanche Deveraux) said about taking a road less traveled; it made all the difference.
Robert Frost was kind of a big deal, so, I think it won’t hurt to take some advice from him. Just saying.
- Live each day with courage and love: Years before my father passed away, he wrote my sister a letter on life. And in this letter he wrote, “when you do something, ask yourself, ‘where’s the courage in this?’ Acting with courage isn’t always the easiest thing, but who ever said doing the brave thing would be easy?“
It isn’t always easy for me to face challenges, as I’m sure it isn’t for many of you.
I get anxiety.
I let my insecurities get the better of my heart.
However, when it comes down to it, I pull through when the going gets tough! I will ask myself when making choices where the courage is in it, and I will answer honestly and proceed with all my heart. It takes courage to love ourselves and others with all of our scars. I must remember, we’re all fighting our own battles, and to make it through we must do so with love and courage.
Do you ever think, “I need to reevaluate my life?” Have you ever written a manifesto for yourself? What do you want from each and every day?